I'm gone.

These are all the things I'll never say to you, and you'll never read, so it's all the same if I post them here.

I hurt you more times than I can even remember.
I wanted the idea of you more than I wanted you.
I loved you all along.
I'm done making the effort for someone who doesn't want me.
I hope when you see me, it hurts you.
I hope when you see me, there is healing in you.
I hope when you see me, I don't see you.
Don't forget, it was through me that you became who you are today.
In time, I may be your friend, but only if you truly want me to be.
I am someone's FIRST choice. Not second, not third. FIRST.
I deserve better than this hurt.
I deserve every ounce of this hurt.
I hope you hurt like I do.
I hope you never feel like I do.
I'm better off without you.
I want you to admit you miss me.
I find it very freeing to be without you.

And even though you've already heard it, just in case you forgot:

I was fixed when you left.

Goodbye, for now, forever, for a time. I don't know. But what I do know, you're in the same place you were. But me? I'm gone.

xme