On Pain

Was there a heart that split like mine?
A soul that broke as such?
A mind that felt this searing pain?
Will I survive this much?

I feel I have a role to play
A mask that I must wear
My tears become my sacrifice
My screams, a twisted prayer.

I find Myself alone again
A cutting fear distracts
Cold hatred pressed against my wrist
I'm slipping through the cracks.

I will not let Me fall apart
Or let you see Me cry
You cannot watch Me break again
Or be the reason why.

I wish I could erase my past
Live down all my regret
I'd make you all remember Me
Then make you all forget.

If you could walk a mile for Me
In my shoes, if you please
My life would rip your soul in half
And bring you to your knees.

The things I wish you saw in Me
The scars my bruised heart bears
Then you would know just what it's like
To feel like no one cares.