So much for the showdown ...

It never should have come to this. I don't know who let who down but really. We've failed. I have fallen down, and I can't do this alone. I feel like I was wrong when I said I could survive without you. And I've never been so angry as when I saw you were with her. I know I shouldn't be this way. I shouldn't get a knot in my stomach when I see your name. I shouldn't hate driving past your house. I shouldn't despise the music you used to talk to me about. Because it's not like you did anything wrong. You were always perfect, weren't you? Always right. Always the goddamn center of attention. Did you ever stop and think that maybe, just maybe, someone else was more deserving? That someone else wanted the spotlight? No, you never did. It was always your stage. And to hell with anyone who tried to share it with you.

I think it would be alright if you were amazing. But when it comes right down to it, when the lights come up and the crowd leaves, you're really nothing special. I used to believe you were. I thought the sun and the moon and the stars hung themselves in the sky purely for your enjoyment. Morning was a reflection of your smile, night was the sun's rest from beholding your beauty. And I always hoped you would look upon me and be able to find me satisfactory. I desperately wanted to be good enough for you. And you would be blind to miss the attempts I made. But somehow, after all I did for you, nothing was deemed adequate, and I have been thrown out and forgotten, like yesterday's news.

One day, once you've grown up and realized that the universe was not created for your amusement, I hope you'll be able to see me as a person, not a prop. Maybe, someone will use you as you used me, and you'll understand the pain of being worthless in another's eyes. But until then ... Goodbye. You can try and replace me, but you never will. No one will ever fight as hard for you as I did.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. It's not like you'll ever read it anyways. Thanks for never giving a damn.