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Perhaps I will, perhaps I won't
Cross my heart and pray I don't
But if I die before I wake
Please God, repair the hearts I break.

When you sleep in slumbers deep
You don't see the tears I weep
A thousand roses, one for each,
Would not portray my sorrow's reach.

People come and people go
But angels never leave, you know
We both forsee the darkness near
So tell me ... why are you still here?

God forbid I shed these tears
For all the pain of wasted years
Grant me peace and rest this night
And let me see the morning's light.

Naaaaameless

Life is many a curious thing. It's never the same, but it only changes when you least expect it to. You can try to control it, you can try to direct it, but in the end, not one of us can. Life is not for human comprehension. It is for all the angelic beings in the heavens above to bless and direct as they wish, and for the terrible monsters in the depths of Hell to manipulate and twist as much as they can.

{Choose your weapon}

Sometimes Life throws events at us that, in hindsight, leave us wondering how we ever could have possibly survived without them. Other times, however, Life leads us to circumstances that we so no possible way through.

{I have a bad feeling about this}

Life is a journey of opposites. Life is an expression of self, through the creation of the Divine and His will for us. Life is not made for us to understand, but rather for us to ponder. Life was given, and may be taken away. Life was created and can be destroyed. Life is short, but will seem long.

{Living is the leading cause of dying}

Dear Manda;

Here are a few things I think you should know:

Money buys things. If you have enough money, you live. If you don't have enough money, you survive. And if you have too much money, people steal it.

Friends are not expendable. You need them. They need you. Yes, you'll fight, but 15 minutes after you call her a terrible friend, you'll realize she's one of the best things in your life. So apologize. Don't call her a terrible friend anymore. And put up with her flaws, because you've got some too.

No matter how much or how little eyeliner you wear, it will NOT make you popular. And even though you spend your entire life trying to explain to people that that's not why you wear it, they won't listen. And they'll call you a poser. Just like if you wear tight pants and dye your hair black. They're the posers. They don't understand that people actually do things for reasons other than looking cool. So keep doing what you want for whatever reasons you want and ignore them because they're useless.

Some people annoy you on occasion. Some people annoy you on frequent occasion. This is no excuse to hurt them. They are still people, no matter how much they follow you or how many stupid questions they ask. God still loves them. You should try it.

Long thick hair is the spawn of Satan.

Finding friends in unexpected places is magical. Those people you randomly hung out with one day? They're cool too. Don't give in to the pressure of staying in your own group of friends. Step out of your comfort zone, and you'll have much more fun in life.

Food prepared by genuinely nice old ladies will always fix a broken heart. No matter who broke it or how.

Making lists is the best way to arrange your thoughts in the order of when you think of them. It is not necessary for there to be significance in the order in which you place them, but parents, teachers, and other adulty-type people are more likely to give you things if you at least attempt to look organized (and trust me, they rarely find out you aren't).

Your opinions are just fine. You don't have to change them for anyone else if youdon't want to. People who change their mind because other people say so are called conformists. And although they seem to be the most popilar right now, they'll grow up to be a grand total of nothing special, because they're spineless. You might think you want to be one of them, but you're wrong.

Randomly bursting into song is only allowed in movies. People look at you strange if you do it too often. You want to avoid this.

Making people laugh is the most wonderful thing you can do. Better than buying them something, better than compliments, better than giving advice. Sometimes all someone needs is a little humour in their life to put it all in perspective.

Emo boys are hot. Period.

Some girls will think you are strange for thinking emo boys are hot. They have clearly not met an emo boy.

Chuck Norris jokes are always funny. Even when you're heard them a thousand times, you are still laughing - at least on the inside - when you hear them.

Song lyrics never exactly explain your life unless you write them yourself. And writing songs isn't lame. It's creative. People who think writing songs is lame are mindless MTV zombies with no backbone. They also quite possibly buy their personalities at American Eagle, or a store of the like.

Homework and Water do not mix nicely. Water has a never-ending vendetta against Homework, and when the two meet, Water wins.

'42' is basically the universal answer to any question life can throw at you. However, if this should fail, you can try 'possibly', 'in a minute', 'mac and cheese', or 'I just lost the Game'. These five answers will conquer awkward silences in almost any conversation, and more often than not, will actually revive it (just don't use any of these in response to inquiries of a serious nature).

I wish I had learned this sooner. But now's your chance to learn from my mistakes, and be better than I've been. Grow. Believe. Love many, trust few. Choose your battles wisely. You know I've always got your back.

Love forever,
Manda

On Life

Dreams are just memories
That haven't come to pass.

Stop to smell the roses
Smile
Do a crazy dance
Compliment someone
Skip down a hallway
Create
Hold the hand of someone you love
Mismatch your socks
Play in a cardboard box
Leave a note on someone's pillow
Coat your room in chalkboard paint
Recycle
Listen to a band you don't like for a change
Line your sock drawer with wrapping paper
Paint your face
High-five yourself in public
Draw
Make a t-shirt with your name on it
Write your future kids a letter
Mail your Christmas cards in July
Imagine
Be noisesome
Make a playlist of all the songs you love
Send someone a thoughtful text
Light a candle for someone you miss
Cry
Take a shower with all your clothes on
Give yourself a good talking to
See how many clors you can get into one outfit
Explore
Play Scrabble and be all the players
Do something you love each day.

Yesterday is the past; tomorrow is the future.
Today is a gift, that's what they call it 'the present'.

Trying to Make Sense of This Puzzle Called Life

I wear my heart on my sleeve
Don't you know?
You should have noticed by now
It's plain as day
Right there, on my shoulder
It's magenta.

How could you do this to me?
You said you were my friend
But now
Oh now, now, now
You've wrecked all my plans.

I'm a trainwreck
But the most gorgeous trainwreck you've ever seen.

Just when I thought I finally had everything figured out ...
You step in
And make everything a mess again.

Thanks a lot, I owe you one
Watch out, cause I always pay my debts.

Inadequacy

Inadequacy is a part of life. Some may even say inadequacy is human nature. And perhaps it is so. But. To be inadequate is not so much a display of insufficiency as it is an example of one's poise. Inadequacy comes on the heels of self-recognition, self-consciousness, and self-awareness. Inadequacy is the most challenging of emotion to overcome, and in the end, one is no better off after admitting one's flaws than prior.

In delving into one's soul, the deeps niches of our inner beings, we are able to discover our flaws. This painful experience often allows us to encounter sides of ourselves that were previously unknown.

We have to allow our faults into the light of day. Hiding doesn't solve problems, neither does ignorance or disregard. The only way to gro is to acknowledge our imperfections.

Sounds like a good time.

J'adore tu.

A moment
It's there, then it's gone.
I etch it all into my memory
Every detail of your face becomes a part of my remembrance
In case the day comes when I can't see you again.

I don't want to forget.
I don't need to forgive.
Nothing is wrong.
Everything is right.

Emotion and response,
Just as it should be.

Speak
And I will remember your voice.
Laugh
And I will laugh too.
Smile
And the world is a brighter place.
Leave
and I will be counting the seconds
Until you return.

Thank You

To legwarmers - even in summer
Purple ones, green ones
Striped ones with buttons.

To site assessing
And riser duty - boo
Don't drop the electronic piano!

To meeting new people
Friendships that will never die
These memories will never fade.

To the best nine weekends
Challenging, but worth it
Practice ... practice ... concert.

It's go time guys <3

The Never-Ending Story

She sat on her bed, pen suspended over the pad of paper she was holding. She gazed thoughtfully, if not absent-mindedly, at the smiley face clock on her nightstand. It had been a birthday present from her sister. She wracked her brain for something, anything, that she could write down to destroy the blankness of the page. A blankness meant no story, and no story meant frustration. Until, that is, she wrote something down. An idea came to her, just as her favorite song came on over the radio. She scratched it down just in time to sing along with the las chorus of the tune. When she was done, she sat back and read her creation. Here is what she wrote:

(back to top)

What, can't you find the end?

Oh, Envelope

Envelopes are good at holding stuff
Except when they get rained on.
Then they get all soggy
And the stuff inside falls apart.

I wish I was an envelope
But not, cause envelopes fail when rained on.
I don't fail when I get rained on.

Haha Envelope, haha.

Manda > Envelope

I win :)