I wanna get iiiiinked :S

Day thirty eight:
A picture of a tattoo you'd like to get.

Today again, there's two. My indecision is beginning to come out in this blog ... oh dear.

First one:

I've always loved the idea of a cross on my wrist. So valuable to me.

Second one:

Tattooing wedding bands is I think one of the coolest things. I mean, I'd still want an actual wedding band, you know, for the ceremony and things but knowing that I'd never be able to take off my wedding ring is a neat thing to me.

Now I'm off to ready for work - I have a vendor shift so yay for sweaters, and tights under my jeans :D

xme

Sigh. Yay flowers!

Day thirty seven:
A picture of your favorite flower.

I love Gerbera Daisies. They're so bright and colorful and alive.

BUT. I have a soft spot for ...

Blue roses. I think they are exquisite.

That's what you get for today, Blog. Sorry. I'm not ignoring you, I'm just sleepy.

xme

Tiring Friday at work made up for by great rest of weekend.

Oooookay. Now I'm here. And I'll give this a better effort now that I'm a little more settled in. Took me a month, but my roommate's in now and we've finished painting and we're here. And I'm here. And here's some picture.

Day thirty six:
A picture of your dream wedding dress.

Kay so ... This isn't like. THE dress for me. But it's certainly a style I love and am interested in. I like wedding dresses. I like dresses in general, I think they're beautiful. But this is kind of the style I like :)

OH HEY. If you follow me, or don't follow me, but live nearish me, the Bunker's Farewell to 4th Street party is happening this Friday. THIS FRIDAY. It's going to quite literally bring the house down. Deconstruction of the Bunker as we know it now starts the next day. We'll be running our Tuesday night program on the 28th and our Saturday night program on the 3rd afterwards, but this is the last Friday night you'll ever be allowed in the B! We've got the crew from Jonny's Java coming in to make it awesome and more pizza and cookies and muffins and other good things than you can imagine what to do with, so come help us eat and have a party to celebrate the awesome things our 4th street Bunker has done, and toast to the super duper exciting deal that will be the new building!

Bunker stuff done. I had a great weekend. I had a tough night at work on Friday, but then the weekend got awesome after that. Saturday night at the B was off the chaaaaain. And then Sunday was a lovely day of Tom hugs and sushi and Lights. Oh Lights. She was absolutely exceptional and the nicest person and SO LITTLE. So yeah. Tiring Friday at work made up for by great rest of weekend.

I need to make a more conscious effort to stay connected on social media sites, now that we haven't lost control of the internet - if you'd like to know more about the awful bill that DIDN'T pass, chat with hebb (http://hebblog.tumblr.com/), he's a good dude.

Aaaaaanyways. I'm out! I have other things to do today. Like. Laze. Lol no, I get to work on a Bible study that's going to rock socks off!

Peace ouuuuut.
xme

I'm back! I'm back!

Aaaaaalright, so after six weeks with no internet and the BUSIEST September I've ever had in my entire life to date, I'm back with some more words and pictures and things :)

So first things first:

Day thirty five:
A picture of something that can always make you smile.

Call me a child and I'll throat punch you. I love making bears, or GETTING bears. It's my favorite thing in the world.

NEXT THINGS:

Guh life. Pause please. I'm car shopping right now and I have my heart set on one but there's a bit of a loan in the way of me and my dream car. Soooo. We'll see how that goes.

Work is bleh. Enough said.

New house is lovely but I'm not settled in yet. It always takes me like a month to actually move all my stuff out of boxes, but now it's not my choice. I'm waiting for my dad to come over and help me finish plastering and sanding on my one wall before I paint and I don't want to unpack and get comfy if Imma paint right away. It's going to be such awesome paint :3

I feel quite alone lately. Like, I have to take on the whole world by myself. It's intimidating. I'm scared.

Also:



Just in case you needed a reminder, or to be told in the first place, that life doesn't last forever. Make the best of it. Don't be a jerk. Just love, only love.

I'm going to sleep eventually, but for now, I'll just curl up in my bed. Goodnight my friends :)

xme

I wants a hug :/

Day thirty four:
A picture of your favorite memory.

I don't like this one because I feel like I have so many 'favorite memory' pictures. I chose the day I met my brother because it's a more recent one and there's some outstandingly funny pictures from that day. That being said, I wish I knew how to create a .gif of these pictures, because it would just be one of the funniest things.

(I have no idea what either me OR my mom is doing.)

The Bunker missions team will be home day after tomorrow, and I could not be more thankful if I tried. They are all (currently) alive, and safe, and looking forward to returning. And although I've thrived on my own these last two weeks, I will be very grateful to have Tom a fifteen minute walk away from me again.

Goodnight all <3

xme

Looooove this movie

Day thirty three:
A picture of your favorite Disney movie.

I've seen it so many times. Great great movie :D

xme

Day thirsty two:
A picture of your favorite bird.

I've loved snowy owls since I was little. I wants one. Kthanx.

xme

This was an easy one.

Day thirty one:
A picture of someone who's always been there for you.

Exodus 14:14 <3

xme

This was a very difficult post.

Day thirty:
A picture of someone you miss.

I actually had a whole list of people to choose from but in the end, the person I miss the most is someone who doesn't exist anymore.

I want to go back in time; not to regain what I've lost but to erase it completely. You can't miss something you never had, especially if all you never had was just an idea.

xme

We had absolutely no alcohol in us.

Day twenty nine:
A picture that can always make you smile.

From Mel and Heather's grad ... such a fun evening. I have no recollection of what we were doing for this picture. I recall some form of insect infestation during these pictures buuuut. Maybe I was overtired.

xme

I'm a day late on this one ...

... but I can explain why. I thought I had timed this all out so that I could get this first picture taken in time for Day twenty seven, but I apparently can't count properly. So I'm going to post twice in this entry. Here we go.

A picture of yourself and a family member.

This is my biological brother, Cam, and myself. We met today, for the first time, and it was life-changing. I'm so thankful he felt the desire to contact us, and so blessed to have met him today.

Day twenty eight:
A picture of something you're afraid of.

Entonophobia is the irrational fear of wood ticks. I hyperventilate. Don't ask me why, they just ... really, really bother me.

xme

I kind of wish it was tomorrow already.

Day twenty six:
A picture of something that means a lot to you.

I love my iPod. It's been through a lot with me, and if it could talk, it would tell some pretty sweet stories. I've had it for six years and it's really a great little machine.
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I really need a hug today. Does anyone have one to spare?

xme

I'VE MADE IT 25% OF THE WAY THROUGH!!

Day twenty five:
A picture of you last year, and now; how have you changed since then?

Last year:

Now:

I have changed infinitely since this picture. I barely even recognize my old self, emotionally and spiritually, at least. Physically, I'm very much the same. Same build, same style, same hair. But inside? I'm less dependant on others for my confidence. I'm stronger, and more resiliant. I'm less irritable, I'm more positive, and I stress about things less. I'm content, I'm happy. I enjoy life, even though life is very difficult for me right now. I've rarely been as satisfied with my place in life as I am right now; I feel as if I am precisely where God wishes me to be.

Real life updates now though! I just got off Skype with Tom, and so far, everyone's doing well. They're all having a great time, experiencing tons of new things, and eating some seriously awesome food by the sounds of it. They've seen a lot of rain, but that's keeping the temperature down and helping them get accustomed to the climate a little easier. So that's a blessing!

Aside from that, work is tough, but I'm managing. I'm just sort of done with working two jobs, and I suppose it's wearing on me.

On Wednesday, I get to meet my brother. It feels like I've been waiting for this day my whole life, I'm so incredibly excited.

Also, next Sunday is the Skillet concert (I AM SO PUMPED). Saw Transformers 3 yesterday and it was great. I'll have to see it again with Tom when he gets back, because I was verrrrry tired and didn't quite keep up at the end. But I'll try harder next time.

I'm out. Later all you pretty people :)

Stay with me here now, and never surrender

xme

All come, all fall; All walk with hearts so torn

Day twenty four:
Something you crave a lot.

A carefree, sunny day in the park with Tom. Nowhere to go, no one who needs us to be anywhere. Just ... hanging out. Being us. We get so few days like that; it seems as if there's always some demand on one or both of our days. It was nice this particular day to just be ourselves and enjoy the world without worrying about who's watching or what else needs to be done.

xme

Happy Canada Day!

Day twenty three:
A picture of you, and the top five things you like about guys.

1. Faith: The most attractive thing about a guy is when the only way I can find his heart is to be chasing after Jesus myself.
2. Eyes: The only eyes I've ever fallen in love with are eyes I can't stop staring into.
3. Sense of humour: I love a guy that can make me laugh.
4. Arms/shoulders: Good shoulders and strong arms are my favorite place to fall asleep.
5. Playfulness: I need a guy who can be a kid with me.

xme

A dash of this/that ... ?

Day twenty two:
A picture of something you wish you were better at.

I really wish I was better at cooking. I'm alright, I guess, and with a recipe I can do some pretty cool things, but I just wish I had that knack for it that some people have.

xme

Goodbye my friend, until we meet again.

Day twenty one:
A picture of something that makes you happy.

Kittens was going to be my first choice, because I went to visit a friend of mine the other day, and she has four young kittens at her house; they are so astoundingly cute. But then I saw this picture, and realized how happy music makes me, too. It's so relaxing to me, to be able to express myself in music. So this is a nice juxtaposition of two things that make me very happy in life :)

Also, quick update on life: the Bunker missions team is leaving this evening for Puerto Rico. It's a two week trip during which they'll have the opportunity to really impact change in the communities they're going to. Please pray with me for the leaders and students going on this life-changing journey. Thanks a ton!

xme

Konichiwa!

Day twenty:
A picture of somewhere you'd like to travel.

I would very much like to visit Japan. There's so much culture there, I think it would be so inspiring.

xme

... with a cause?

Day nineteen:
A picture of you when you were little.

That's me on the right, biking without a helmet. What a rebel.

xme

MORE MILK

Day eighteen:
A picture of your favorite drink.

I still really REALLY like milk.

xme