Monday, December 31, 2007

New Year's Post

So the year's almost over, and it's time for me to reflect on what's happened throughout the year. Here's a list of things I've learned this year, that I wish I could have told myself last January ...

1. Money buys things. If you have enough money, you live. If you don't have enough money, you survive. And if you have too much money, people steal it.

2. Friends are not expendable. You need them. They need you. Yes, you'll fight, but 15 minutes after you call her a bitch, you'll realize she's one of the best things in your life. So apologize. Don't call her a bitch anymore. And put up her flaws, because you've got some too.

3. iPods, no matter how green they may be, will NOT make you popular. And even though you spent an entire year trying to convince people that's not why you bought it, they won't listen. And they'll call you a poser. Just like if you wear lots of eyeliner and consider dying your hair black. They're the posers. They don't understand that people actually do things for reasons other than looking cool. So you keep doing what you want for whatever reasons you want and ignore them because they're useless.

4. Some people annoy you on occasion. Some people annoy you all the time. This is no excuse to hurt them. They are still people, no matter how much they follow you or how many stupid questions they ask. God still loves them. You should try it.

5. Long thick hair is the spawn of Satan.

6. Banff is one of the most beautiful, peaceful places on Earth. Take as many pictures as you want, no matter who looks at you strange or who thinks you're an idiot.

7. Finding friends in unexpected places is magical. Those people you randomly hung out with? They're cool too. Don't give in to the pressure of staying in your own group of friends. Step out of your comfort zone, and you'll have a hell of a lot more fun.

8. Food prepared by nice old ladies will always fix a broken heart. No matter who broke it or how.

9. Boys all suck. Some of them are just better at hiding it than others, and those are the ones you want to surround yourself with.

10. Making lists is the best way to arrange your thoughts in order of when you think of them. There is no significance to the order in which you place them, but parents, teachers, and other adults are more likely to give you things if you attempt to look organized. They never find out that you aren't.

11. You're opinions are just fine. You don't have to change them for anyone else if you don't want to. People who change their mind because other people say so are called conformists. And although they seem to be the most popular right now, they'll grow up and be a grand total of nothing special, because they're spineless. You might think you want to be one of them, but you're wrong.

12. Randomly bursting into song is only allowed in movies. People look at you funny if you do it too often.

13. Making people laugh is the most wonderful thing you can do. Better than buying them something, better than compliments, better than giving advice. Sometimes all they need is a little humor to put life into perspective.

14. Emo boys are hot. Period.

15. Some girls will think you are strange for thinking emo boys are hot. They have not met an emo boy.

16. Chuck Norris jokes are always funny. Even when you've heard them a thousand times, they still make you laugh inside.

17. Song lyrics never exactly explain your life unless you write them yourself. And writing songs isn't lame. It's creative. People who think writing songs is lame are mindless MTV zombies with no back bone. (see #3 and 11)

18. Homework and water do not mix nicely. Water has a never-ending vendetta against homework, and when the two meet, water wins.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

100 Things to Do When There's Nothing to Do (All Alone and By Yourself)

haven't been blogging much lately, my internet isn't so great right now and my mom doesn't seem to understand that, yes, having internet is nice, but when you've got a major compulsory history project due in a week, IT'S FREAKING NECESSARY.


*sigh*


but whatever. here's a list i came across while reading The Book of Lists for Teens by Sandra and Harry Choron that i found thoroughly amusing. i've decided that this list is going to be my new year's resolution - minus the ones i've already done and/or the ones i don't feel like doing. because my initial new year's resolution, which was to write a beautiful, poetic new year's resolution, failed. miserably. i know, it's lame.


1. take lots of deep breaths and listen to the sound of your own breathing.

2. play music.

3. rearrange the furniture in your room.

4. reread your favorite book.

5. look at the stars.

6. exercise.

7. clean something.

8. make a list of all the things that stress you out.

9. rent a movie.

10. make up stories (in your head) about strangers.

11. say a prayer.

12. record a funny message on your answering machine.

13. write a poem.

14. sing a song.

15. learn to do something new.

16. burn incense.

17. light a candle for someone you miss.

18. plan a party.

19. take a nap.

20. paint a picture.

21. teach your pet a trick.

22. plant something.

23. bake brownies.

24. cry.

25. take a bath with your clothes on.

26. beat up your pillow.

27. meditate.

28. look at old photographs.

29. go into a sealed room and scream.

30. restyle your hair.

31. make funny faces in the mirror.

32. play a sport.

33. drink a cup of tea.

34. drink a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows.

35. fix something.

36. go swimming.

37. take a hike.

38. give yourself a good talking to.

39. don't talk for a whole day.

40. climb a tree.

41. write a letter to someone you're mad at (but don't send it!).

42. dance.

43. plan a trip, even if you can't really take it.

44. eat something for the first time.

45. learn to do one new thing on your computer.

46. practice belching.

47. eat something yummy.

48. buy new underwear.

49. try role playing.

50. practice kissing - on your own hand.

51. wear something you never wear.

52. smell flowers.

53. daydream.

54. walk in the rain.

55. try to figure out how many grains there are in a quart of sand.

56. read a story out loud.

57. go to a movie.

58. work on your collection of whatever it is you collect.

59. throw out something you don't need anymore.

60. go to a museum.

61. make a comic book.

62. make a tape of your favorite songs.

63. learn to play the harmonica.

64. learn some words in a foreign language.

65. memorize the phone numbers you call most often.

66. whistle.

67. do tomorrow's homework.

68. learn to juggle.

69. practice telling jokes.

70. learn something about your ancestors.

71. stand on your head.

72. visit a playground and go on the swings.

73. write a love letter.

74. watch a ball game.

75. practice writing with your other hand.

76. make animal noises.

77. skate.

78. visualize your perfect place.

79. blow bubbles.

80. go to the library.

81. take a ride on a bus.

82. line your drawers with weird wrapping paper.

83. Write a letter to your congressperson expressing a political opinion.

84. read about a religion you know very little about.

85. go through your baby things and reminisce.

86. update your address book.

87. explore the jungle under your bed.

88. ride your bike.

89. read the newspaper.

90. ponder the univers.

91. play solitaire.

92. fly a kite.

93. make a collage.

94. go jogging.

95. make a list of all the great things about yourself. if you can't think of any, make them up!

96. play scrabble and be all the players.

97. write a letter to the children you might have one day and tell them about yourself.

98. enter a contest.

99. teach yourself sign language.

100. just be.

so in summary:

i need an answering machine, some candles, flour and cocoa, marshmallows, something broken, a quart of sand, weird wrapping paper, a congressperson :P, a jungle under my bed, a kite, and scrabble. sounds like a mission :D.

peach out.
xxx

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

make that a clubhouse on white ...

mmm yum i am eatin a sandwich. it's - you guessed it - a clubhouse on white. bacon on a sandwich? what? ONLY THE BEST SANDWICH EVER!!

so like ... yeah :P

okay well, tomorrow is natasha's birthday, i guess. cool, maybe i should remember that ... wish her a happy birthday and stuff. and then on sunday is brendyn's birthday. wow, he's 19 :S scary, i guess i didn't realize the age difference between him and me was that much. meh, whatever. he can now buy me alcohol in every province in Canada :] bahahaha burn :P

OMG CHRISTMAS IS ONLY A WEEK AWAY!!!

even less actually, cause it's tuesday, and nearing the end of tuesday, no less. so wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday. OMGOMGOMG 5 DAYS. i need to do some Christmas shopping ... maybe i'll do that tonight ...

well i'm out loves, i've got english to do >.<
xxx Manda

Thursday, December 6, 2007

staring at my feet

i can walk now :)


that's not actually why i put that as the title though ... i'm listening to Suzi Rawn :D

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

quick explanation ...

just to be clear: i've had this blog for over a year, but i've removed the old posts because i'm not that person anymore. i didn't delete them, i just drafted them so the whole damn world can't see them. what i'm trying to say is ...

minus yesterdays, all the blogs prior to that are either from my journal or my myspace. so maybe that'll clarify the angsty myspace layout blog a little bit :P

so what are you guyses all up to? i'm not doing much. i'm on my spare right now, lunch in 40, and i'm majorly hungry already.

i hate being stared at and when people point out something i already obviously know. i also hate public computers, because people always seem to stare at my computer. it's annoying. like when i'm checking my myspace or something and people are staring at the screen, and its like wtf? yes, that's me in the picture. yes, i'm wearing black lipstick. no, i'm not goth. and yes, i took it myself. i should just put that as the caption ... for every freaking picture. ugh, people annoy me.

[40 minute bell :D]

maybe you guys didn't know this, but blogger has this function where it saves your blog as a draft every i think 2 minutes. it's brilliant! it's for those of us who multitask :P like, when i go on the internet to do homework, i check my email, then my myspace and facebook, and then here. so sometimes, parental units and/or hateful teachers come along and one must close the window. this way, if i have to close the window, i only lose a few thoughts. it's totally made for people with rubbish memories.

i totally just poked jessica in the face. she's sitting next to me in the library. on the computer. all slouchy in her chair. we're like, twins right now :D except that she's actually working and i'm not. that's probably kinda stupid of me, but i'll work in my chem spare.

it's snowing here :) it's so pretty, i wish you all could see it. winter is beautiful :D the only downfall is that i'm still on crutches, and manda + snow + crutches = trouble. crutches challenge my balance. and traction. and sense of direction ... there is no way to be graceful on crutches :P i mean, not like i'm graceful at all to begin with, but like, come on. this is brutal.

i'm being stared at again. >.<

grr, i don't like nosy people. so i'll just turn my screen slightly away from that direction.

haha poor kyle, the phone keeps ringing. lol that's what you get i suppose :P he sounds too professional :S it's like, you're 17, not 35 :P. wierd.


carson's here, he'll probably accost "the cripple" (a.k.a. me)

well, i'm pretty much out of random library observations to blog. oh i'll be changing my url soon, mine sounds pretty little kiddish. i mean, it's cute and everything, but kinda ... 7 year old :P and i am definetly no 7 year old. i'll probably forget to tell you the new address, but don't be offended, i forget everyone :)

haha oh, he didn't even come make fun of me :P how polite *rolls eyes*

na na ... na na na na ... hey hey hey ... goodbye.


peace bitches
xxx

Monday, December 3, 2007

i'll be blogging for christmas

so i've decided to begin blogging again. here i am - tada!

i'm in a weird mood today. i don't really know what it is ... i mean, i'm tired, i know that much. but that's from the concert last night, and because i didn't get to bed until 3 in the morning. the alarm clock was cruel to me and still woke me up :[

so right now, i kind of miss people. i'm not hinting either ... "oh i miss someone special ;]" ... like, no. i'm not a freaking barbie. i miss a bunch of people: kathryn, mel, geoff, mitch, joel, mal, audrey ... those type of people. and some of them i don't know when i'll see them next :[ i hate that i live so far away from so many of the people i care about.

but anyways. i'm in the library right now, on spare, and i should probably go get my history homework from coddie before history class. apparently it's only supposed to take like, 15 minutes, and i've got half an hour, so i should be good. i actually think i'm going to go do that right now.

talk to you all later
xxx

Thursday, November 22, 2007

i'm not emo. deal with it.

haha well i'm finally back with a decent blog ... so what am i up to lately? nothing much, really. i'm failing chemistry. big surprise.

but right NOW ... i'm looking for a new myspace layout. something that's different, you know? something that's ... well, me! which makes me think, you know? how is ANY layout "me" unless i design it myself? and seeing as i am not very good with the whole html thing ... i can't do that. so i have to settle for using someone else's interpretation of "me", or a similar interpretation as to one i would make.

that's bogus.

why do you have to have a layout at all? why can't it just be Facebook style (and no, i'm not paid to advertise Facebook. although at least they don't read my profile and target-advertise to me ...)? i don't get layouts. i very rarely keep the same one for much more than a month. it gets to me. if it was up to me, i'd change it daily! unfortunately (or thankfully, i'm not sure yet) that's not a very plausible idea, so i'll stick to changing it whenever the hell i feel like it. this has seemed to work pretty okay up until now.

but the thing with choosing a new myspace layout is that its always hard to pick one that's not going to get you retarded stereotypes. i mean, i had one once that had cute little skulls or x's or something on it, but i had found it under "emo layouts". now, i'm going to level with you: i'm not emo. emo is just a word, a word that society has totally twisted around to refer to someone in skinny jeans and tons of eyeliner. i wear eyeliner. lots of it. one of my friends commented the other day that i wouldn't have to spend so much on eyeliner if i "didn't put so damn much on". mad props to my girl for pointing out the obvious.

it should be, should be, apparent that i act like i act and think like i do because i feel like it. i have skinny jeans (not that i can wear them right now, my damn foots still to swollen from surgery). somedays i wear them. normally with my Live On Arrival tshirt and a totally great plaid bandana. sometimes even with *gasp* a spikey belt. but otherdays, i pull on my cream cashmere sweater over a pair of light wash straightleg jeans, throw on a little lip gloss and mascara and go.

but i digress. what i'm trying to emphasize is that myspace isn't about being "emo" or "punk" or "prep" or whatever the hell else you want to label people. its about connecting with people all around the world. that's what it was designed for. not ... who can get the most picture comments from their fake friends wanting comments back so they can look popular too.

i'm going to keep being genuine with people. i'll keep being honest with my friends. and yes. i call them friends. sure, i may not have met them all, but some of them are nicer to me and more understanding than half the people i see everyday. so you think that's lame? knock yourself out. this is me not giving a damn.

and you know what? while i'm on the subject of angsty ranting ... i just read Juan Mann's latest blog entry. you know, the Free Hugs guy? ya, his landlord is evicting him because too many people have been stopping by to encourage him. like ... jerkface much? come on people, the guy just wants to make a difference. why do visionaries like Juan always get burned the most?

that's also bogus.

so it's my humble opinion that people should stop focusing on their own little bubble and start thinking about how to make the world a better place. or at least shut the hell up. that would be useful for those of us who are trying. let's be honest people, how many of us have captioned a picture "i don't know if this one's so great" just so that people would respond "it's great! i love it. it's my favorite. can i own?" i know i have. and i know for damn sure i'm not alone.

and yes, i'm listening to christmas music. screw you too.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

a week in the life ...

07/13

so harry potter and the order of the pheonix (movie) came out last wednesday. me and my cool sister mallory went to see it on friday. it was the bomb. i cried. twice :D that's just what i do during movies. so that was good times. it was different than the book, though. but the book is like ... ----------------------------- that thick. they guy who plays harry potter is such a little cutie, what with his accent and all. british accents are sooooo adorable.

07/14

then on saturday i hung out with my cousin shay and my cool morden friends brett and trav and my cute saskatchewan friend dev. i haven't seen him since last summer and it was cool to see how *almost* tall he's gotten. it's kind of funny, i can probably make as many short jokes about him as i want because he'll never read this. he's not cool enough for myspace, he's only on netlog. losers.but seriously, he's the same height as me, and i'm 5'5". i'm kind of average for a girl, but for a guy ... well he's kinda little. but he's super toned, he walked around without a shirt for the whole evening, and i'm sure he was just showing off. he's got an ego problem like that ...

07/15

sunday i hung out with shay again. we were in a will smith mood, so we watched wild wild west and hitch. and then we started harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban. but we didn't get finished cause her parents got home. oh and we stole the truck and went to my dad's place and kidnapped munchies. irregardless.

07/16

yesterday i worked (blah). getting up at 8 to stock shelves from 9 to 6 is very much not where i will be my whole life. it's a job though ... i only worked until 4:30, so i suppose i should be thankful. i had a doctor's appointment with this specialist, and he's agreed to operate on my feet. so we booked the left foot first, cause it's kinda worse.and then i went to the opera house for this play thinger i'm in. i only have a small part, but i asked for a small one cause i don't have the time to be a main. so i chill offstage most of the time, but it's all good.

07/17

today! i slept until 2 cause i didn't have to work :D ate, watched tv, and now i'm online. haven't done a whole lot, but that's okay

07/20

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS. there really aren't any words to how excited i am about this book release. i mean, come on, i've invested damn near a decade of my life into this series, it's kind of surreal that it's actually almost over. it's strange, but i feel like i'm losing something close to me, and i'm not even sure why. i guess this is what it felt like when c.s. lewis died, and people realized there wouldn't be any more chronicles of narnia books. i dunno ...

Thursday, May 3, 2007

My Songs

Eight songs. Just eight. But those eight songs are the most amazing songs in the world to me, either because they remind me of someone I love, or because they have powerful lyrics. Sometimes, when I'm in an emo enough mood, I'll set it to repeat and cry through the whole playlist a few times. :) That doesn't happen very often, though.

1. Paperthin Hymn - Anberlin

It's a beautiful song. I got it from a dear friend of mine, someone who knows my taste in music startlingly well. The music video is very moving.

2. Stolen - Dashboard Confessional

I think it goes without saying that this is a great song. You have stolen my heart? Come on. If a guy sang this song to me, I would melt, then pass out, then be in love with him forever :) I'm not too hard to please.

3. Lightning Crashes - Live

One of my best friend's favorite songs. He's got okay taste in music (:P kidding darling, I love your music). He made me listen to it once, and he kind of got me hooked. It doesn't have the same sentimental value that it has for him, but its a good song and it helps me remember that I'm loved.

4. Weapon - Matthew Good Band

Such a powerful song! The lyrics are incredible. I love the guitar riff in the beginning, and how it changes tempo about a minute and a half in. Here by my side, you are destruction.

5. Innocent - Our Lady Peace

This is pretty much my song. I request it at every single dance I go to. FINALLY we have a dj that has it :P Makes me cry when I'm emo. Me and Shayleah scream the lyrics like there's no tomorrow. Because it's/we're awesome like that.

6. Whispers in the Dark - Skillet

The first of 2 Skillet songs on my list. This song makes me remember that I am loved and protected in a way that no other song has ever been able to do. The first time I heard it, I couldn't speak for a few seconds. My love is just waiting to clothe you in crimson roses. The metaphors are stunning.

7. Open Wounds - Skillet

This is a bonus track released with the special edition of one of their CD's. This song makes me cry on a fairly frequent basis. Or it tears deep into my soul and makes me bleed where I'm the most raw. Either way, I can't listen to this song without it impacting me.

8. Promise - Spoken

A simple song with a good beat and an uplifting chorus. Things will get better, this I promise you. Loneliness won't last forever. It's gold. These boys need recognition for recording such a fantastic song. A medal or a Peace Prize or a small island somewhere.